Reqium For My Grandmother

i got high
my grandmother is in the hospital again
the third, 4th, fif5h ?... time
they scare me...the blood//death//needles//gloves//bedpans

my grandmother is in the hospital again
they scare her too ...
the blood//death//needles//gloves//death
she is exceptionally afraid of death

they scare her too
when they put an IV in her neck, arm veins collapsed
she is exceptionally afraid of death
her eyes welled with tears

when they put an IV in her neck; her arm veins had collapsed
she stared at ... me
her eyes welled with tears
because her youngest son walked out 10 minutes ago

she stares at me
because i’m here//i’m family;
because her youngest son walked out 10 minutes ago
left the hospital for home

because i’m here// i’m family
the third, 4th, fif5h ?... time
left the hospital for home:
i got high again.